Serial Killer Club

[ Wednesday, May 15, 2002 ]

 
Illusion of Fear

Living life like an abomination
Accepting all that is
And all that will never be
Fearless to the end.....My fatal downfall
Making one cold to the world....Driven

Oblivious to what makes people be
Becoming more than i need to become
Needing to feel what i never known
Never being a real man..missing what it feels like to fear
I,m the freak....the clown...

Passionate about the macabre
Needing death to fill the void
Love to fill the void....Just to be someone
The void consumed me at a young age
Now in my mind i am totally alone

Can you show me life
Teach me to fear
What its like to live
To die??

Tired of life so i cry
Wonder why i am not fearful
Dying forever
Never becoming


Isolated by the truth,Raped by fate
Gripped by all i don't need in my life
Struck down by the heavens
In this life i don't need,Never ending again
A solitary want that i will die with..Fear begins??

Morbid and Antisocial.....gripped in pain
Outkast...The way i want to be
No one will ever understand that i am incomplete
Never to be Whole...ever
I am already dead inside...Why am i not.....complete??

Can you show me life
Teach me to fear
What it's like to live
To die??

Tired of life so i cry
Wonder why i am not fearful
Dying forever
Never becoming

WHY..... can i not feel
Needing this and nothing else
Gripped by this shit
I want to die
I want to be alone!!!!!

Enveloped by the darkness
Eradicated by the light
Redemption by fire...Burn me alive
Drowning in a life i don't want
And a felling that i all but need

Damned from birth.Laughed at by your god
Graveyards and angels...foreboding.... Unrelenting
Someone make this right ...PLEASE HELP ME
I will say my prayers and kiss the face of death
Perhaps she will help me.....to fear...to die








WishKiller [10:50 PM]

[ Tuesday, May 14, 2002 ]

 
Long Gone


I dreamt of you a 10,000 times
Loved you and wanted nothing more
Needing you and never knowing why
Never listening to anyone that called you a whore

Gave me what i needed and what i thought i had
Blowing off everyone for you.Kissing your ass
Handed you my world on a silver platter
You never cared..Never will...Shattered like glass

Dreams i had were all given up
Catering to your wants...Giving in
Falling deeper for you...Blinded by you
Always giving in

Someone told me you were no good for me
I told them to go away
You were my world...No one else mattered
So you won.once again..I,m just your prey

No one cared for the way i became
Just you and your wannabe friends
Taking control.using my heart
I was going to hell anyway for my sins

You slipped up and lost me
Forever i might add
Bitch please...I'm gone
Say your piece and get out of my face

Those i lost i will never have again
You fucked my life...Fucked it good
Slipping away from me...Gone...FUCK YOU!!!
NOW BACK HOME WITH YOU....YOUR LITTLE HOOD

Come on you don't mean that...
You can't be serious...
That's too good to be just for me
Die bitch die.....I must be delirious

Now you see all the things we couldn't be
Tearing out your heart...Cry for me
Like all the times i cried for you
Now you go from place to place....In misery

I was the best thing in your fucking life
You used me like a Toy
Getting you off and working off my ass
Now without you i found joy

I was everything you ever needed
Everything you were told you would never have again
You were it all to me...My life ..My death ..My last chance
Now you realize that....little whore ....Final sin

No i am at peace...Needing just to be
Relaxing and healing the wounds you caused
It will take the rest of my life...
More than you will ever know......I Love to be without you


WishKiller [12:22 AM]